Day 8: 09/15/12

Ok so I had a bad night last night. What I mean by that is that I called my fiancé for about an hour last night. I was scared and I could feel that panic attack that I had the night I was rapped. I hate that feeling. I hate being panicked for no reason and I can't control it. The worst part is that I don't understand why it happened last night. There was nothing that happened yesterday that should have set me off.

I had a great day, had gotten my blog done early in the morning. Didn't do a whole lot other than make some cookies and get some apple cider. Then I spent the evening with my family. I was tired so I went to my room around nine. Was chilling on my computer downloading music, and then bam it hit hard. I was curled up on my bed and I couldn't handle it.

So I called him we talked for forty five minutes to an hour. Then I laid there for a while, while I talked to a few friends. But why do these attacks happen? Why Doesn't it get easier? I know most people have to live with this a lot longer than I have but I just want to get back to normal is that too much to ask?

I Get Off - Halestorm

Thanks,
Suz