But that brings up scary questions for me. Why did I start this blog? Was this my way for attention? What other ways do I scream for attention? But in all honesty, I did this because I was told too. I am enjoying this now but I didn't want to at first. If anyone asks my fiancé when I want attention you will know it. I have been informed over the years by him a few things. Everything on this list he had told me over the last few years:
- I am more stubborn than a mule
- I have a big mouth
- I have a huge set of lungs
- I give too much of myself
A friend of mine and I were talking online last night when I realized that his closest female friends all have "storms" in there life. He refers to emotional break down's as storms because every man who sees a bad storm coming should know enough to get out of the storms way. Not him. Now I'm not saying that he loves the storms or that he intently seeks them out. But unlike most men he knows how to handle them. That scares me the most because he doesn't judge me when they happen. He doesn't hide. He doesn't walk on egg shells. He knows that most of the time I just need to vent. Give a few points of advice. Then the next day I am surprised when he still talks to me.
But that's friends that's something we all have to realize when you are a very close friend or more than that. These out bursts that we expect people to run and hide from, the true ones don't. They stand by you. My fiancé and him are the people who usually have to deal with my outbursts. And every time it happens i just want to push them away from me. But they don't let it happen. They stick by me and help pick me back up again and keep me going.
Holding Us Back - Katie Herzig (If you haven't noticed that I have done every song in alphabetical order. Yes I am that girl)
Thanks,
Suz
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