Hello everyone, My name is Susanna Elizabeth Rosencrantz. I am 22 years old and a rape victim. I have people in my life who have shown me what that means and who I am now. I had a very bad experience about a month ago and I stopped blogging because of that.

That morning didn't start out so good. I went on a new anti-depressant. Wasn't happy with it but did what I was told and maybe it would acutely do me some good. Any way I was driving into flint (I live about 20 minutes north of Flint) As I was about to pick my friend up for school, I saw him, I saw M. (the man who rapped me) I was shocked but I put on my big girl pants picked up a friend and drove to class. I was seeming ok, just wasent my best. I was blocking it out trying my best to stop looking beside me to where my best friend should be not where he was in port huron.

I was trying to hold everything together it just didn't seem like it was working but I also didn't think I was doing terribly either. So I hiked my big girl panties again and started heading home. I made it back to flint, dropped off my friend and went back towards to expressway heading to home. But I didn't go home. I turned South instead of North. I can't honestly tell you why i did, but I did. I drove quite a ways not paying attention. I was fully awake and conscious but I wasn't all there I wasn't thinking. I was just driving. Finally I got off the express way found a subdivision and parked.

I got out and walked for about an hour. Didn't walk any where in particular. I was walking to relieve stress and to try to think. Until my Mom finally called me and I talked to her did I finally realize what I was doing or where I was. I started crying and hyperventilating. i quickly walked back to my car got in. Luckily I was able to gps my smartphone and get the hell out of there. My Fiancé's phone was off, one of my best friends was already asleep, another lives in New York, but my last one Paul answered me and calmed me down.

So needless to say it was an insane night and a bad anti-depressant for me. I am off that and will never go on again. So I needed time to separate myself and discover a lot more about myself. I needed space and I'm ready to come back. So I'm back are we ready?